7th Post: You have to crush the leaves 1st!

I found out the reason why my lemonade got no ‘minty freshness’ even though I added the mint leaves. You gotta crush it 1st! Then after a while, take them out. Don’t leave them in the drink when you wanna keep them refrigerated.

Otherwise, as what my Mom aptly said, ‘Tasted like toothpaste’ 😬 It actually did, so yeah.. 😬 😬 Not really fond of drinking toothpaste-flavored drink so it was a bit of a funny tea time.

I tried making a traditional treat, called ‘kuih lapis’. Only, it turned out kinda tough & sorta hard. Who am I kidding, it has the texture of a toffee which has been left out in winter for a couple of hours. Every day.

‘Kuih lapis’ with pink layers. Pic from google. Mine got the looks, but while this one may give an image of a princess in a tutu dress, mine looked like the princess stumbled out of the carriage and decided to go hitchhiking barefooted.

If it turned out well, it should be super soft, moist & easy to swallow. Unlike mine πŸ˜‚

My dad, who always tried to find the silver lining in every one of my kitchen failures, said he liked it though. ‘Made you feel full with only a piece. That’s good, you won’t overeat then’. I love my parents 😁

We’ve started the movement restriction this week, in view of the rapid rise in the Covid-19 cases. I’ve just watched a video by Science Insider on how the virus affects the lungs and it is scary. I’ve also read that the death of those inflicted by the disease is very sad, because they can’t meet their loved ones and even in death, they had to go through special measures to be buried. They can’t meet physically with their loved ones until the end of their lives..

O God, please help us in this time of need. May we have the faith & strength to go through this. This phase will end. We will be OK.

6th Post: Everything’s going down..

Everything’s going full-speed downward.

I left a trail of unfinished stuffs at the job so the replacement & ex-supervisor have been pushing me non-stop for stuffs.

Come to think of, I knew it was gonna end like this but still chose a, well, lots of momentary pauses.

I’m ruined for life, aren’t I?

I’m in my mid-20s, single, with no prospect of anything in the soulmate department. I’ll probably grow old & die alone like those Japanese oldies. Undiscovered until the rotten stench of my corpse signaled people that I’ve passed.

I dislike doing anything requiring any bits of effort from my side. Waking up in the morning is a chore I never wanted to do so I rarely did.

But I know these blissful days aren’t gonna last. I’ll be called into service in a month? Maybe 2? I could delay it, but people around me, my family, friends & colleagues are gonna be quite annoying to deal with later.

“Why’d you do that? Yada Yada yada”

Can’t exactly say that I just wanna not do anything, ideally for the rest of my life, now can I? 😬

I did do something sort of worthwhile recently.

I started a herb garden. So far, I have rosemary, mint, thyme, stevia & parsley. I’ve used some rosemary & thyme to make a delicious mushroom soup. I didn’t add any salt, Mom said it needed just a pinch of salt to enhance the flavor, to which I disagree. I’ve always found the mushroom soup in restaurants too salty to my liking. But this reminds me that my palate is blander than the rest of the community, so I’ll have to set aside a batch for me & put in salt for the rest.

I’ve also put some mint leaves in a lemonade. Didn’t change anything though, flavor remains like that of a lemonade, without any minty freshness. I’ll have to Google again how to do it right. It should‘ve gotten some minty freshness in it right?

Here’s the recipe for the mushroom soup that I got from some website/blog. Can’t really remember. I added some rosemary in it, though I’m not really sure if it changes things. I’d like to think that it did add a good flavor to it.

Cream of Mushroom Soup


2 tablespoons olive oil, divided

15 ounces fresh mushrooms (shiitake, portobello, cremini)

3 sprig fresh thyme

2 cup onion, chopped

1 stick butter

1/4 cup all-purpose flour

4 cup vegetable stock

1 1/2 teaspoons sea salt or Kosher salt

1 teaspoon Freshly ground black pepper

1 cup half-and-half

1 cup heavy cream

1/2 cup minced fresh flat-leaf parsley


Clean the mushrooms by wiping them with a dry paper towel. Don’t wash them! Slice the mushroom or chop them into bite-sized pieces. Set aside. Heat the olive oil in a large pot saute the mushrooms & thyme appx 10 min until lightly browned. Place in a bowl and set aside. Remove thyme stems (leaves should have fallen off)

In the same pot, Heat the remaining 1 tablespoon of olive oil and saute the onions until tender. Cook covered over low heat stirring occasionally for 15 min. Add the mushrooms back to the pot.

Next, Add the butter, allow to melt then add the flour and cook for 1 minute. Add the vegetable stock and stir for another minute, scraping the bottom of the pot. Add 1 1/2 teaspoons salt, and 1 teaspoon pepper and bring to a boil. Reduce to simmer for 15 minutes. Add the half-and-half, cream, and parsley. Heat through but do not boil. Serve hot.

season with salt and pepper, to taste

Here’s where I got this recipe from:

Homemade Cream of Mushroom Soup

I didn’t know what half-and-half was, but Google said that it was a combination of milk & cream, so I kinda substitute that with just milk, but in a smaller amount & added the stated amount of cream. Looked great, tasted good to me, so πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™‚οΈ I’m happy with itπŸ„

Let’s just see how it goes from here ayy me?

It’s going to be a long ride hopefully, coz it would suck to die early.

5th Post: Tired but happy

I completed the assignment for that huge & successful meeting last Friday.

Yay!!! Everything went well. All those times in front of the screen was worth it. I actually felt a tiny bit sad for leaving this job.

But I’m feeling much happier now that I’ve resigned. Well not yet, but soon.

This weekend was the most relaxing one since the start of the new year.

I ate a lot, hung out with my loved ones, visit lots of places, made future plans to go out soon.

I’m content & happy.

I wish everyday would be like this.

But having too much of a good thing is never OK. You’ll get bored & won’t appreciate them as much. That’d be quite a tragedy I think. So having a balance for each is important~

4th Post: I’m tired

Weekend’s over.

I’m tired & afraid.

Please let this week go faster.

I want it to end real quick.

I want to get this done & over with.

I want to rest quietly somewhere where nobody could find me.

I want to live like that.

It’s me being ungrateful for my healthy functioning body, my youth, my everything that there are others who would love to have for they don’t.

I’m feeling wretched.

3rd Post: My heart is heavy

There’s a feeling of something akin to heaviness in my chest. I’m scared of meeting another supervisor today.

The things that I was supposed to do a month ago. How would the supervisor react when it was known that I didn’t do anything yet?

I just couldn’t do it because I didn’t like it? Or simply because I didn’t know much? I could have been feeling lazy too.

There’s so much wrong with me. I shouldn’t stay in this job anymore. It’s not fair to myself and the company.

Thank God everything will be over in another 2 weeks.

Just 2 more weeks me.

Hang in there.

2nd Post: I Went Through It!

& honestly, it wasn’t that bad.

Both supervisors were cool. We discussed things nicely. We talked about going out for a lunch outing together to celebrate my last days of work.

Back in my office, my colleagues & I went out for a welcome lunch together with the new member who’ll take over my job. All the best you!

I did work, & actually had some fun doing it. Banters with my colleagues were funny & informative. I learned who Guy Fawkes was, and how he tried to bomb the British parliament in 1605, which is superrrr long ago. Apparently the creepy smiling mafia mask is nowadays used as a symbol of terrorism online.

I also tried an Indian banana leaf meal set today. It was nice! It’s better eaten while you’re in a cold weather, I think, coz the spice do make you feel a bit heated up a lil’.

1st Post: Why I feel this way

A supervisor wanted to meet me today, to discuss on this document that was not understood and needed more clarification.

Face to face, because it ‘might be confusing to do it over the phone’.

So I’ve to drive slightly more than a good half an hour to get to her office (my company puts the employees in multiple different locations from the main office, hence the distance).

I just don’t feel like doing it.

I’m sure that the supervisor will be accomodating enough.

It’s just me feeling like this.

And I hate my feeling like this to the core.


Hope everything will be alright.

I’ll have to use a facemask while going out later. What’s with the coronavirus nowadays killing people all over.

Please God. Help me with this feeling.

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